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Monday, February 19, 2018

Me and my skinny

So the main topic this CNY (in fact everytime and everywhere) is mable why you so skinny.
I mean I was this weight for a year already and i thought everybody would've been used to it by now.
Two months ago I even dropped below 40 now gain back that 1 kg already so should be considered ok already ma.
Stuffed with food and so so so so so full i don't want to eat anything for at least a week.
I suspect it's simply because everyone around me is gaining weight and i'm not (like seriously! at work, xxx's gf, at home, everywhere else) people are getting rounder and i'm not and that makes me look all the more worrisome (is there such a word ah).
Well it's just age I guess. Some people grow fatter and some people grow thinner. And i'll be one of those fragile looking ah mas in the future. Oh no. And bony aunty with lots of wrinkles in the nearer future. Oh no no no. I just thought of that horrible lady working in one of our client companies and she has a damn high voice sounding like mosquito always complaining and saying negative things and she always tries to wear like young girl and she is skinny and has SO MANY WRINKLES on her face and body and erm even at her business line. So geli i'm sure they are drooping too. I don't want to be like her even though i have no business line. K i admit i hate her a lot and am always finding a chance to complain about her ever since i got shot by her TWICE for something that is not my fault wtf you wrinkly auntie angeline i may meet you tomorrow too wtf hope you're not in office i hate you and your thick makeup which can't hide your wrinkles.

On a totally different note:
In this world of strict rules and imaginations, all that's still keeping me alive is "she"and her 单纯. The outside world has never and can never harm me but as for the world within, i can't even put into words.

Thursday, November 23, 2017



Sunday, November 19, 2017


尤其是,某位女人。。。Hi Mable, how are you doing? ((搂肩
Hi auntie, I'm fine ((笑得好开心可是其实等着她走开


Friday, October 6, 2017

Getting super irritable and impatient lately. Barking at the littlest things. Feeling why can people be so stupid and when sometimes i realize that i'm the stupid one then that's even worse.

I can't believe i managed to write out a full android app for my FYP just 3 years ago, and now i don't even know how to run an app from android studio! Much less how to put the app into my phone to test. As for how to design screens and code functionalities, that's even more hopeless.
Found and looked through my FYP documentation, doesn't make any sense.
Followed online tutorial but nothing works.
Damn how could i have forgotten when i spent so much time to learn it on my own step-by-step and even succeeded in writing it out.
Walao what a waste of time. What a bad memory. That's one whole semester of work gone.
Hope i'll remember it for a longer period after this project. A bit difficult to forget i guess, if they pay  maintenance fees. So unless i resign there's a slim chance of me forgetting ever again.
But damn how do you even start...

Saturday, September 23, 2017


Met up with my best (probably only) friend few weeks ago. Why do some girls like to talk so much when it's already past midnight? There i was half asleep and she was gabbling on and on and reminiscating about our foundation year. About our little group back then. And how sad it was that we've lost contact with most of them, we should meet up and blah.
I'd give anything to go back to that time. Back to the time when less was more.
Back to the time when I didn't have my own spacious and clean room, decorated with cute blue furniture.
Back to the time when I wore dirty canvas shoes instead of high heels everyday.
Back to the time when I only had a dusty wooden cupboard stuffed with T-shirts and two pairs of jeans, instead of a big wardrobe overflowing with pretty dresses, blouses and skirts.
Back to the time when I was still playing with Bun-bun, Baby Jack and the rest.
Back to the time when there were classes, assignments, and tests.
Back to the time when there were events, and friends to attend those events with.
Back to the time when "shopping" meant taking the university's bus to Giant or Tesco. There were FOS and Reject shop outlets at Giant, and also Popular. And a gift shop at Tesco. KFC was there too. And that was all.
Back to the time when I first tasted freedom. But hadn't got lost in it, yet.

Too many voices, but I don't want to listen to any of them. Don't know who to listen to, don't know why I should even listen at all.
I feel like I'm standing on a very very small island. There's crocodiles on one side, and boats on the other. But I don't know whether the people on the boats are friends or enemies. They say they are friends. But.. they're just saying it. I asked them to please leave me some food. But they ignored me. But they say they are friends.

Saturday, July 29, 2017




其实很多事情我都是知道的,自己的缺点我当然比谁都清楚。只不过,愿意讲出你的缺点的人很多,他们都是关心你的人。可是愿意陪你一起面对,并且一起克服这些缺点的人,很少。会跟你说,“什么,连xxx你都不会!都几岁了”、“你真的要学了,都这么长这么大了,不能什么都不会”这种人很多。可是愿意主动说要教你的人很少。当你学不会,很坚决地想要放弃的时候,有人还愿意花时间说服你继续学习,说“你现在不学就永远都不会,等下别人笑你的时候你又不开心”、“没有人是一出生就什么都会的,我们都是慢慢累积经验,一步一步学会的”、“每个人成长的环境都不一样,所以擅长的东西都不一样,像你就很会读书,读那些英文字都读很快” 这一类鼓励的话。明明我也还是知道自己很笨,很没用,可是最后你还是成功把我说服了。



Thursday, June 8, 2017




最近才领悟到之前是我太笨了,一直被客户牵着鼻子走。客户A的project已经跑着一年多了,他们有给maintenance fee(是包了fix问题和加小小样的东西),所以不管他们要求加什么改什么,我都第一时间做给他们。

客户B的project一直没办法live,因为他们的要求加了又加,改了又改。我花了几天时间做好的report可以说改就改,而且不止改一次,是五次以上,每次我都花很多时间做好,做好后他们又说对不起我们给你的又错了又需要改。又或者是,不好意思我有一个坏消息告诉你,你那个xxx report我们不需要用到了。md那个我也是做了好几天,你们的这些report不是画几个table画几条线出来放几个号码进去那么简单的。你们是用word打出来的说改就改当然容易,可是为了得到这些号码,这些sum 这些total,在你们选回之前的日期或者以后的日期都给你们看到当时侯应该出现的data,我几乎整个system 的 code都要改过。阿不然就是大老板来参加会议,每次来都爽爽说要改flow,而且是大改。可是还好这些时候我们老板都有在,会要求加钱。可是改来改去真的不好玩,我都花那么多时间做好了,你不要再一个月又一个月地白费我的青春了。。。

最近几个月越来越不爽,于是客户A每次找我时我就直接告诉老板问他要不要算钱的,他就会马上叫我send man days给他,超过一天半的都要算他们钱。哎呀我之前真的害公司亏损了太多!几天前客户A一次过签了好几千块的quote,才知道我早就应该这么做的了。

今天客户B又来找我了,说某function下个星期开会时要给他们看,可是那个东西他们之前开会时都没有提过出来的,而且很费时间。一直以来他们叫我加什么我都会照做的,可是今天压力非常大,听了电话后很想打人。于是我出于一时气愤email老板问他说他们之前给的钱有包括这个的吗,又或者是我们应该算他们钱的吗?然后刚开始做两分钟老板就马上回复我说不要做,这个是out of scope的,我们答应他们做的范围根本没有cover到这里。然后才想说天啊,我真的早就应该什么都跟他报告的,不能一直觉得这是小事还是不要打扰他好了。。真的亏了好多时间好多钱!


从这件事看出来我的另外一个缺点,就是我做事都太急了,又不爱问人,所以往往做好了才发现根本不需要做的。又或者是举例刚刚的客户A有另外一个system我做了一年多都还没有做好,为什么呢,因为我做好后才给他们看,他们很不满意,一直改改改几乎改到完。是accounting system来的。之前老板给钱他的accountant朋友叫他教我怎么做,可是不懂是我笨还是他笨,他每次过来我们公司都是坐在我旁边然后开另外一个web site(quickbooks)或者software(MYOB)给我参考,那个quickbooks他自己其实都不太了解,自己一直找来找去,又都load到很慢,我每次都觉得很浪费我的时间因为他坐在那边开几个page给我看就半天过去了了,所以最后都没有再叫他过来了。总之我每次问他什么,他都会叫我照抄quickbooks的。问题是有很多accounting reports我根本不明白是怎么做出来的,他也只会开一些不完整的或者是空的sample给我看,又不会解释,我根本不懂那些号码是怎么得来的。后来我都放弃了自己来,一个一个去google研究每个report的程式,奇迹似的我真的做对了蛮多的,其实很不好找因为我根本没有accounting的背景。



Saturday, April 22, 2017

Being dragged forward

It's been three years since I last updated here. Wish I could go back to the days when:

1. I could freely express what's on my mind and what I've been through, without fear of losing anything.
2. I could finish everything on the plate without getting severe nausea afterwards.
3. I could wear normal S-sized clothes without being told I'm too skinny and it doesn't look good on me.
4. I could go through the first few days of my period without screwing up my face in pain or going through emotional turmoil.
5. I could actually enjoy a peaceful, productive working day without having to spend most of the day checking/solving issues which were not caused by me, or adding some extra (free) stuff for the client. Then there goes another day without any work progress and the same client is complaining about how slow I am with her other project.
6. My phobia of the phone ringing was not yet as strong as it is now.
7. I could relax in peace without being disturbed by my thoughts.
8. I was actually willing to take the initiative to make small talk or act friendly.
9. Stress only came from assignments.
10. I didn't have to conceal my emotions.

Growing up isn't what I thought it would be like. It's not.. nice. At all.
I didn't believe it at first when they said this year would be a bad year for the people born in the year of the rooster, but I cannot deny that things have been getting a bit overwhelming lately.
The worst thing of keeping everything in is that they burst out some day, and they don't stop flowing out until you're totally drained of energy.

Today is actually a very calm and peaceful day, and I'm on my period, and I have nothing to do, which is why I'm updating my blog all of a sudden.

Tuesday, November 4, 2014


#still missing him. a lot.
Btw I've been going slightly crazy lately and hui xin is getting kind of fed up with me.
I can transfer from 花痴(我的supervisor很帅erh你看他的眼睛然后你看他少两颗牙齿的几可爱!)...
To big sobs with overflowing tears (他不要我了他要别人了怎么办)...
To maniacal laughing (哈哈哈哈哈哈你看这个图写什么哈哈哈哈哈)....
To crying again (我真的很想念他,很想回到一年前,我要他牵我的手)...
To fake 花痴(Johnny给我听的这首歌很好听咧你看他的歌词他的歌词!啊他reply我了哈哈哈哈哈,他今天还在公司特地播这首歌给我听咧)...
To sobbing again into Bobby (bolster)(其实我真的还很想念他的咧,我要他,以后都不会有人疼我了,以后都不会有人帮我捞面帮我搅lemon tea了,我很想念他呜呜呜呜)...
To seriousness(你觉得如果我跟Johnny在一起的话我会不会比较容易忘记他)...
To idunnowhatimtalkingabout-ness(其实Johnny真的不错他比Gary好很多啊,真的真的)((这时候Huixin会开始抓狂...
To sincerity(你看Johnny几可爱,他特地send这样的图片过来逗我开心(he edited his photo into a girl),很老套可是很贴心很可爱咧!(**花痴的笑声)可是他连续spell错三次laugh(spell成lough)我觉得我以后还是会顶他不顺)...
To emoness again (Hui xin 我真的很想念他。。。救命。。。(huixin完全没有打算理我然后继续跟男朋友Skype)T.T)...

So ya it's a bit disturbing to become my roommate. :/ She becomes from “哭吧哭吧,哭完出来就过去了” to “yerrr你真的有病,我不要跟你讲话了”...

And these few days i'm either laughing like a lunatic either in my room or in the office(hui xin: yer你可以不要笑到酱紫吗  me: 可是真的很好笑咧你看这个东西你看你看你看!)or crying like a baby.
In other words, 最近我的笑点和哭点都很低!Must be the hormones, maybe I'm pregnant with some faeces or something. 

Friday, October 31, 2014

昨天在手机里的某段小小的conversation过后,今早在巴士上J*h*ny就跟我讲清楚了,一开始时真的很像致词“首先我要跟你道歉”,然后过后就弄到我越来越尴尬因为他跟我讲他之所以会这么奇怪是有原因的。。是因为他发现到了我隐藏了21年的魅力然后嗯嗯嗯我就不知不觉地给了他一种前所未有的感觉,所以我就变成他第二个喜欢过的女生了。。。== 然后他一直跟我道歉然后叫我不要这么紧张(我一直望窗外然后对着窗口讲话-.-)。。然后他还说如果他以后还做了什么让我不舒服的事情,我心里想什么就要跟他讲什么,不用怕他会不开心还是怎样,因为我们都是成年人了(@@?)。
然后最后他小小声问了我一句“如果我真的追你的话你会怎样?” 然后我就毫不犹豫地说“嗯我应该会立刻拒绝你吧,所以你不要再浪费时间了”,然后他说“至少跟我讲一下原因吧?”然后我就说“因为我没有打算再交男朋友了”。 然后这个话题就结束了,他就开始聊眼镜什么的,然后我就问他看到这个吗看到那个吗。。之类的。。所以我们现在还是朋友,只是他不会再对我这么热情了。哈哈。


Tuesday, October 14, 2014



Sunday, September 7, 2014


5am and I can't sleep. Not in the mood to write a proper blog post so I'll just jot down some updates about my current life lately.

1. I've just started my internship on Tuesday. Boss planned to transfer me over to their new company so I didn't have anything to do. Same goes for Wednesday. Thursday Johnny brought me over to the new place. Still nothing to do coz there was only Chin Peng besides the 2 of us, and he wasn't my supervisor or anything. Friday went to work together with Chin Peng, my supervisor (Wei Yin) was there (again, only 3 of us, Johnny wasn't there), so I got some mini things to do.

2. I had quite a happy week especially on Thursday. Johnny is cute and nice and so is Chin Peng. Wei Yin is also nice but since he's my supervisor so he got a bit of 距离感 (nothing to do with age, probably bcoz he's very pro). I haven't met the boss at all. Don't even know what he looks like.

3. I'm single. Still don't feel like talking about it. I keep seeing him in other people, hearing his voice when they talk to me, wish they'd stop repeating what he's told me before.

4. Emo. A lot of pimples lately. Fat face. Very ugly. Insomnia. Feel like vomiting.

5. I'm done with this post.

Friday, July 11, 2014

心里的 _ 子



破滅的美夢  一個又一個
別人總愛說 妳已長大了

學會化妝 去遮掩些什麼
學會先沉默 再察言觀色
本來的我呢 快不記得

在心裡 的孩子 扮大人 的樣子
一開始 有意思 後來雙眼總潮濕
在心裡 的孩子 盼誰來 講故事
讓不安失望 暫時靜止 

雷雨不來 又哪有彩虹呢
能自我安慰 是必修的課
不確定我是 變得隨和

在心裡 的孩子 扮大人 的樣子
一開始 有意思 後來雙眼總潮濕
在心裡 的孩子 盼誰來 講故事
讓不安失望 暫時靜止

在心裡 的孩子 後悔曾 很固執
太好奇 許多事 不顧後果的嘗試 
在心裡 的孩子 常祈禱 有天使
借一雙翅膀 逃離現實
不愛看自己 哭的樣子


一夕改變的命運 一夜長大的必須
渺小的自己 假裝平靜
巨大的孤寂 卻騷動不已 

我們緊握著手心 眼睛微笑成星星
在子夜輪替 守護指引
外面太冰冷 就披上風衣 

沒有意志 就沒有鑰匙

擁有支持 才擁有天使


Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Koko Krunch

So I was walking back to my hostel room from the academic block just now, and was feeling quite hungry, so I stopped by INTI Mart to go buy some biscuits or whatever, but couldn't find any biscuits that I liked.
Then I passed by the cereal shelf and saw that a free musical figurine comes inside each big box of Koko Krunch.
But RM10.80 leh. And as a rule I don't really like to eat Koko Krunch that much, and have never eaten it again since about 2 or 3 years ago, when I bought a big box of Koko Krunch just because I saw this guy inside the box.
His right leg can move up and down de leh
But then I got a sore throat and then a fever after eating the whole box in one night. So that's why I never bought Koko Krunch again after that.

But today this one.. hello it's a MUSICAL figurine inside leh.. you're supposed to fill it with water and blow it and it's gonna produce some sort of sound, and when you rub its back it's supposed to produce another sound. Walao! How to not buy?

However, I'm SO PROUD to announce that I did restrain myself from buying the big one. Even though I couldn't resist buying the smaller box for RM6.50 because it comes with a balancing figurine. :/ I bought it just because I was curious about how it would look like (never seen before ma). Definitely not because I'm a fan of collecting free stuff or whatever. Nope.

Oh so that's where my 48kg came from.

Free flask for the same price as no free flask, which would you choose?

Anyway. Here it is.


See got sticker some more leh
But now I'm kinda wishing that I bought the RM10.80 one instead. Musical figurine leh. But RM10.80 and sore throat. I must bear that in mind.

Thursday, June 26, 2014

可是记得又怎样,现在我连一句简单的生日快乐都不想post在他们的facebook wall那边了,不是不记得,只是我很清楚自己在他们的生活中已经没有任何地位、没有任何意义了,所以即使是现在还用着某个人的生日日期as其中一个非常非常重要的密码(已经用了4年,越久我就越不想换,因为越久我就越跟那个人没有关系(虽然说本来就没什么关系==),就越难被坏人猜到,那个户口就越安全),我今年还是选择完全Ignore掉他的生日,然后ymy的也一样(tmd我现在才想起ymy好像从认识到现在从来没有祝过我生日快乐!:@ ),然后以前两个中学朋友(我以为)也一样(虽然我一直都没有跟她们很熟),TT和YH的也一样,其实我通通都还记得=.= 

p/s: 这个post我好像只是要证明自己记性好罢了 : - /
p/p/s: 真的很好XD

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

1st Job Interview: Expectations Vs Reality

Gary sends me to KTM station early in the morning, I take KTM to KL Sentral, take LRT to KLCC, walk to Megan Avenue II. Megan Avenue II looks like a large, empty shopping mall. DMF Technology (company name) is an office-like-shop inside the shopping mall. I walk and walk and find it. 
I peek into the office. White lighting. People walking around, some chatting, some doing their work. I visit the toilet and take a pee, apply my lip gloss, smoothen my hair and shirt, giving myself an utterly decent and professional appearance.
Then I go back to the office, knock on the glass door, and timidly push open the door. I tell the girl at the counter that I've come for an interview session. She invites me to sit down and wait as it's still half an hour before the interview starts. Then the interviewer comes, a middle-aged Chinese man. 
I answer all his questions with my well-memorized answers, laughing politely at the right places, and ask intelligent questions about the company. I tell him that my programming skills are really not bad, and I like programming. I have good logical thinking skills. I'm shy and I need time to warm up to people and have problems in making eye contact. He replies that you're doing very well now. I beam in happiness. I tell him that one of my (supposed) weaknesses are that I need clear instructions before starting on a task because I'm afraid of doing anything wrong. He replies that that's very good. I give a decent answer to the "why should we hire you" question. And finally asks him "are you willing to hire me". He smiles and says yes. I laugh happily and we sign offer letters. He introduces me to all the colleagues and we dine together. I take the LRT and KTM home.
- END -

I go to Gary's house for dinner one day before the interview. Gary's parents are shocked to hear that I'm going to an unknown company in an unfamiliar location all alone. Gary's parents insist on sending me all the way there and accompanying me right into the office, because they're worried of my safety (afraid of me being cheated and raped and so on). I try to reassure them that I'll be fine and I want to learn to be independent. They win the debate and I wonder when will I ever be able to repay them for everything they've done for me.
Gary's parents fetch me to KL. Traffic jam. We reach Megan Avenue II. Parking space for visitors is super far down. Then we go round and round the building trying to find the office. By the time we find it, it's ten minutes late for the interview. The office is dark, black and red seems to be its theme colors, has a gongxifacai banner along the top of the doorframe, and is VERY SMALL.
Presses the doorbell of the office. A smiling guy comes to open the door and asks me if I'm Mable. I say yes and apologize profusely for being late. He says it doesn't matter. Uncle and Aunty sits down and waits for me to finish my interview and fetch me back, instead of leaving right away. Guiltiness++++.
Smiling guy (the nice one who answered the phone two days ago and taught me exactly how to travel to KLCC and walk to the office) takes me to a table and gives me some forms to fill up. He says he didn't expect that I would bring my parents. I explain the situation to him and he is even more surprised. He tells me to tell UncleAunty to go downstairs and have a drink first or something, because this is going to take some time. They don't want to at first, but after about half an hour or so they change their minds. 
Ok, to come back to me. I ask smiling guy who is going to be interviewing me, and he says that it was originally a software engineer, but as she's in a meeting, he will replace her as interviewer, but still need to gain her approval for an official job offer. Then I apologize again for being late and ask “迟到有扣分吗?” then he says “没有啦。:D” I'm filling in the employee application form happily, quite many pages, when I come to the end of the page and notice Another piece of paper laying comfortably below. IT'S A TEST. WRITTEN TEST. I glance at smiling guy who's doing his work nearby. I look back at the test. It's a test for us to write out simple functions. In whichever programming language we want. Should be easy. 
Then I realize that I've forgotten ALL THE BASIC FUNCTIONS that I've ever learnt. No choice. Have to invent my own code and go the roundabout way, write n lines of code when probably only 5 lines are needed. After about half an hour of me scrunching up my face, squeezing my eyes shut trying to squeeze some logic out, and glancing around for some inspiration, I accidentally drop my pen on the table and smiling guy turns around.
"Finished liao ar? ^_^ " he says.  Oh btw all our conversations were totally in Mandarin. 
"No," I reply wearily. 
"It's all very basic stuff la," says he. 
"I know, but I've somehow forgotten everything," says the reckless me, brain totally emptied of my carefully categorized 'What To Say' and 'What Not To Say'. "Can I use Google?"
"Hahaha that's considered as 出猫 la," says smiling guy. "If cannot do then just leave it blank la, really never mind de."
"NO NO NO I can do it, just give me some more time," I plead, and proceed to struggle with the really basic functions.
Finally I finish. Smiling guy comes over and looks through the paper. "Wah, not bad ma, can finish leh, correct somemore."
"What? Correct meh? 2nd question confirm wrong I tell you," says someone who's so stressed over the test, that she isn't bothering to filter her thoughts.
"No la that one was just to test whether you are willing to complete it or not, some people just give up on the spot." And I was like :O okay. Then we had a conversation but I don't remember what we said. I just remember that it was so normal that I totally forgot that I was going to be interviewed. Something like him telling me that there are a few interns leaving in July so they're in quite a rush to find new interns now, and him asking me about my internship period, and saying that usually other students are 6 months one (while mine is just 4), then I told him that I really don't mind as long as they hire me (wtf desperado over here), and he said “真的吗等下耽误到你毕业” and me saying "nvm毕业不重要” and so on. 
“Oh ok... ermmmm...”
Thirty seconds fly past as I struggle to capture fragments of my carefully prepared answer script to the Tell Me About Yourself question.
“那就没有问题了咯。。然后我在你们的网站那边看到你们有做那个biometric device的hor那个我不会咧。”
“嗯,还有crystal report~" 
“嗯好好 ^_^”
30秒后。。。“我可以看笔记吗,我真的忘记了。。。"((其实我有记得其中一个是说我的Logical thinking skills还不错,然后i'm able to meet deadlines。。。可是after刚才那个笔试我到底还有什么资格讲出这种话?
“没有啦没有啦~ ”
“这里的老板是哪个?” ((快速转移话题
“应该不会啦 :) ”
“我看到那个工作内容,intern真的是会接触到整个SDLC(software development lifecycle)的吗?”
以此类推。。。。我后来继续像机关枪似的问了一大堆有的没的的问题。。。关于公司网站上面的资料的,关于公司的,关于工作内容的。。== 变成好像我在interview他了。。。然后那个tell me about yourself 如我所愿完全被遗忘掉了。说真的如果要我跟他讲我的biggest weakness是Shy的话,那个时候的我真的没有脸说出口。。。interview那时候的我只能用两个字形容:三八。原本准备了3-4个很有水准的问题,结果问了至少50个各种各类的问题,而且重点是我问问题的pattern一点都不是一个professional interview candidate应该有的,比较像是一个小孩对某件事情很好奇然后一直有问不完的问题。。。
没错每当电话响一次然后他跟我说“等一下啊”的时候(电话响了好几次),我都会隐约的觉得我自己很啰嗦,aunty uncle还在楼下喝着茶等着我,smiling guy应该也很忙,是时候结束这场非常不正式的interview了。。可是每次他讲完电话后回来都会跟我讲一些新的内容然后我又有新的问题。。。
总之,到最后,他一直跟我讲“我觉得你应该ok的啦,没有问题,我等那个software engineer回来跟她讲,她同意了就ok了的”,然后我一直很怕他只是想当好人不想毁掉公司的形象。
然后踏出公司的门的时候我就找不到电梯,原来电梯就在门旁边(我哪记得),然后他就跟我说“你真的hmm...还蛮年轻的。。。像你这样真的很容易被人家骗走,还好你遇到的是我们不是什么坏人,以后出去真的要小心一点。”(p/s: 他所谓的“年轻”可以直接被翻译成幼稚。)

然后Interview就结束了。然后他刚才就打电话来说有好消息就是那个Software engineer刚开完会回来然后决定收我了。然后他跟我说可以不要急着接受这个Job offer先,可以先try下别的公司,不然以后后悔就来不及了。可是最迟月尾要给答复。

然后我现在还在想明天应不应该去OCBC Bank的 interview然后尝试下一个超正式的 interview的滋味。可是我真的不想。而且也并没有打算去那边工作。可是又怕后悔!

然后那个DMF虽然那个interviewer他人真的很好,可是如果连我这种人都收的话,他们应该真的缺人缺到一种危险的地步吧。。。难以想象以后自己也会变成那种忙到没有时间说话的样子(应该2天后就要住院了吧,我刚才回到来就直接夏眠到凌晨两点多了)。。。然后我在jobstreet看的时候,8 applicants for this position (10 internship positions),while其他公司都有十多个到四十多个applicants在争5个internship positions。。。。


Tuesday, May 13, 2014



Sunday, May 11, 2014


3。妳进医院的前几天:坚持自己洗衣,把subang说成supermarket,把medicine说成toilet paper


Sunday, April 6, 2014

姐姐帮我share了男朋友帮我share了,我自己也在private message那里一个一个找了一堆人~
3天里面才找到29个人~ 我的人缘也实在太差了-.-

Friday, March 28, 2014

Getting so tired of seeing "Haters gonna hate" on various photos and videos all over facebook.
Please la don't be so drama king and drama queen, nobody's even remotely interested in hating you.
Grow up.

And Also. To those China people who keep complaining about Malaysia and Malaysia's Government.
To those Malaysian citizens who are quick to defend themselves by saying "IT'S OUR GOVERNMENT'S FAULT, NOT OUR FAULT, IF WANT TO BLAME BLAME THE GOVERNMENT, WE ALSO ASHAMED OF OUR GOVERNMENT" and sharing stuff like this on the internet (saying how useless our government is, see, even outsiders are scolding our government).
HOW OLD ARE YOU HAR? Don't tell me you didn't watch the video of the Indian Ocean. If you so clever then you go find the plane la?! Walao! And even receiving the help from other countries is deemed as "useless"? Ok lo then why don't you represent our country and go find the plane on your own. Then you'll make Malaysia have something to be proud of. Zzz really feel like unfriending a lot of people lately. Or leaving long comments in capital letters under their posts.

As for the China people i really no comment liao. I know grief can do a lot to a person. But that's no excuse. And I don't believe all of those who are scolding about Malaysia are really sincerely grieving. You just want to cause trouble that's all because you're childish like that.

Monday, March 24, 2014

Why tell us to keep on hoping when all hope had actually ended 16 days ago?
Why promise and break promises?
Whom can we trust anymore?

RIP MH370, RIP church-member. May all family members, relatives and friends of those on the plane stay strong and their wounds eventually be healed.
- 完 -

Monday, March 17, 2014

Things are getting too much to handle.
Just finished crying and shouting aloud to nobody "dun kacau me i already have so many things to do u think i'm very free is it".
Schedule for this week is totally packed and i have 1 assignment and 1 test due this week, and 2 heavy assignments due next week. This weekend cannot do any work at all and have to wake up before 7am from Friday to Sunday. Tomorrow whole day totally no time to do anything starting from 8am until about 12am like that. Thursday also no time to do anything and i have a test on Thursday.
And still u are asking me to book this book that, ok fine this is not a problem, but after i already booked the thing for 1 or 2 weeks later u suddenly tell me to change the thing to another thing. And it's not once only but multiple times. U think i very free is it? always so last minute. U think printing and reprinting memos is free is it? I swear i've spent at least rm100 on the printing costs of this club.
I'm not even interested in this stupid tournament wtf drag me in and dun allow me to quit, told me i will have less things to do than last sem! Shit, i can understand if u want to 费心费力 about this thing coz it's ur passion, but i have never even touched a badminton racquet in my life nor do i want to touch the thing!

Saturday, March 1, 2014

Random Pics

Just wanted to update my blog so here's some random pics of toys and me.
Nosey and angpao


Balloon and ET
The balloon was given out for free during Valentine's day and it's still in my cupboard, large as life. And I dunno what to do with it coz it doesn't look like it will deflate anytime soon (at least not before I go for internship in September) and I don't like to burst balloons. And it came with a RM50 Fahrenheit free voucher which is expiring at the end of March.
Super ugly
Super ugly x 2
This is me after crying nonstop for just 1.5 hours. 1.5 hours and I already became like this. Eyebags became white and swollen and i single eyelid until the next day's afternoon nap. -.- I put these 2 pics here to remind myself to never try this again the consequences are really too terrible.

Fully recovered and decided to zilian with dear little HBB. ^_^ He's the only toy I kiss every time I see him, and it's not as if he's very kissable either (too hairy for my preference, i prefer fat white faces like Baby Jack)... it's simply because he's too cuddly and cute.

The haze in Nilai is quite horrible but better today. At least it's breezy today.